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7 June 2016

Why Being Diagnosed With Another Illness Is A Relief

I wanted to sit and write a post on health and why being diagnosed with more illnesses no longer hurts but instead is actually a relief. 

Yesterday on the sixth of June 2016, I was diagnosed with Postural Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS) and I am actually really happy about it. You see for a long time now I've been having terrible heart palpitations, flutters and dizziness. The kind where I have to think quickly and just sit on the floor wherever I am or just fall on the sofa if I haven't realised what was happening quite quickly enough.
After many doctors listening to my heart, a twenty four hour heart monitor, my hands, feet and legs turning purple and many a trip back and forth to doctors and hospitals in London, I finally have an answer. I think anyone, even someone who is not unwell themselves, would be able to see why this is such a relief.

I finally feel as though I can start to try and move on with my life as much as possible, knowing that none of the symptoms are going to harm me. Let's face it, you have to be a pretty strong and tough person to cope with illnesses but when your heart is kicking the inside of your chest, it can be a scary experience. 

I now have to just stick to eating gluten and wheat free, drinking two and a half litres of water a day, upping my salt intake and trying to do some exercise (easier said than done I have to say) and hoping that by doing this I will be able to keep my symptoms under control. The good thing is that I already knew I had POTS after doing my own research and knowing that it goes hand in hand with M.E. So I have already gone vegetarian and am slowly trying to take the transition to become vegan. Added more salt into my diet and been drinking only water and I have to say I have felt the best that I have done in a while for it. If my health and the condition did start to get worse in six months time, then I will have to go down the medication route, which would even my heart rate out. I would prefer not to go down this route though, as I really don't like taking medication, as I feel that I have been unwell for seven and a half years now with no medication, so I can deal with anything that my health throws at me!
At the age of ten I became unwell over night. One minute I was dancing, playing the piano, attending school, going horse riding and just being a normal ten year old playing and having a laugh with friends. The next minute I was stuck behind closed doors, unable to sit myself up, cut my own food or have a conversation with anybody, not even my own parents and family. 

The worst thing for me as a ten year old girl was being surrounded by such disbelief and having only my family understand that there was something seriously not right. At the age of twelve I was diagnosed with M.E. Even after being diagnosed with M.E I wasn't believed, people just couldn't understand. It's okay though because I believe that everything happens for a reason and my reason is that this ongoing experience has made me stronger, wiser and made me realise that you only need the people that truly care and understand everything that you're going through in your life and I believe that it is better to realise this at a young age than go through life unaware. 

I am now seventeen years old with Myalgic Encephalomyelitis, Postural Tachycardia Syndrome and Joint Hypermobility Syndrome. Who no longer attends school, left with one GCSE as my health only allowed me to participate in completing my English one. Most importantly I have learnt how amazing the outside world is and how you should never take anything for granted. My health isn't going to stop me fulfilling my dreams, it's simply made me realise how much I want to chase them. One day I will be a set designer but until then and forever more, I am going to continue to talk up and raise awareness of these incurable, misunderstood illnesses and remember that being unwell is nothing to be ashamed of. It is simply a part of you and you are here for a reason.

So to all of my illnesses, thank you for making me a fighter.
Don't quit your daydream...

1 comment:

  1. At such a young age Olivia you are such an inspiration. Continue to raise awareness and being just all around fabulous!

    I can understand how much of a relief it must of been to finally have a diagnosis for what you're going through. You're a fighter, keep going one day at a time :) xxxx